I need to let go

I was lost,
I was alone,
I was broken.
Those things,
They were haunting me.
Every day,
And every night.
I cried myself to sleep
Thinking about myself.
I was hopeless.
But then I started to like you,
Started to see the bright side,
For once,
I started to lighten up.
I was finally on my way to
Being fixed.
I was on my way
To being happy,
On my way to life.
I finally brought up the nerve
And I asked you out.
I wa surprised when you agreed.

The only thing that worries me now,
Is being broken again.
I always listen to that song,
"Unbroken"
And think it resembles me,
"I'm gonna love you like I've never been broken,
I'm gunna say it like it's never been spoken,
I'm gunna give it like it's never been taken,
I'm gunna fall like I don't need saving,
Tonight, tonight, tonight I'm letting go."
When the truth is,
That song,
It's the opposte of how I feel.
I feel like I can't love him like I've never been broken.
I want to,
But I can't.
I can't say it like it's never been spoken.
I want to say the three words,
But I can't.
I can't give it like it's never been given.
I also can't fall like I don't need saving.
Because the truth is, I do.
But the worst of all,
I can't let go.
I can't forget all the times I've been hurt,
The times someone has hurt me.

I want to love him,
I want to say those words,
I don't want to be sad and hopeless any more.
I just need to let go.

Good work!

Thanks, I wrote it last night because I want to tell my boyfriend I love him, but I'm afraid of being heartbroken again

At least you have a boyfriend.

And I get bullied because he is my bf. Just got bullied for it a few minutes ago

Don't take it. Ignore the bully, or, better, stand up to them. Tell someone. Do something.